On Saturday morning I awoke on the floor of a barren living room – alone and confused. Once I remembered that I was in Kate’s new house had fallen asleep mid conversation with Laura and Kate, and then refused to move because I was cozy in front of the fireplace the night before, I also remembered that Saturday was THE day. THE day that I was going to watch the season finale of Twin Peaks.
The long, arduous journey that began during finals week a month ago was coming to a climactic and apocalyptic end. I was excited and terrified that I was about to come to the end of the road of something so dear to me. The twin peaks universe became a part of my very being; I had dreams of twin peaks, everything in my waking life reminded me of the far off never neverland, the characters were so real – special agent dale cooper was my best friend. Heck, I even went to Donna’s family holiday party!
I don’t want to ruin the series for anyone who hasn’t yet had the privilege to see it yet so I will try to be as vague and general as possible when describing the emotions I experienced following the finale. The premise of the series is a murder mystery surrounding the death of Laura palmer. Yet the plot thickens into organic crunch peanut butter as each characters story is told and the secrets of the Douglas fir woods are unveiled. The battle of good and evil, of love and fear, of honest and deception is taken to a new dimension.
At the end of the series finale, I was sweating (whether the sweat was a result of my sitting in front of the heater on full blast in my hot pink onezie or the actual show is unbeknownst to me). My knuckles were white, my hands trembling, my heart palpitating. I felt weird. I was speechless. I think the ending was the most devastating ending I could have imagined. The epitome of a tragedy. And for that – I loved it. For the sheer power the series had over my entire being, for the strength of the emotions it elicited from the deepest darkest depths of my being, I found it beautiful. Twin Peaks wasn’t just a Tv show. It was a part of me.
R.I.P. Twin Peaks. You are loved and will never be forgotten. Your death is not in vain. Love will conquer all.